Hello, it’s me. I am alive!


Hello my fabulous friends! Yes, I know – I legit let a week go by without chatting with you all. I have been slipping here and it upsets me, I will get my butt back on track!

So tell me, what is going on my followers!? I want to hear from you, how are you doing!? Have you tried anything new? Fought a fear? Slayed a dragon!?Β 

Tell me how you are feeling, basically – I feel out of touch and want to hear from you!! PLEASE!

As for me, I have been feeling a bit low and anxious (yes, its just as confusing as it sounds lol). I even had to take a mental health day from work Friday. I have not been sleeping again… so there is that. Just still stressing about my abnormal pap results. I know, I know – I should not be worried. However, I have to take 3 pills a day to try to tame that anxious beast inside me! Sometimes it is still hard. sigh. So, only 2 more weeks to go before my test…. I can do this …Β right? Most women have already been here, done that. So, trying to stay calm πŸ™‚

I did try to do some things for me this weekend due to my mood. I love weird shit, I am a weird gal soooo antique/resale shops are my jam! I found 3?? In my little hometown so I went rummaging to find the perfect thing for me! Right? Retail therapy is always great! The only issue, I could not find anything that made my heart just burst out of it’s chest. I tried to find a record player and or soulful records… fail. I did however see a cassette player in the antique store…so I guess we are finally there? I felt a bit old… not gonna lie. So the perfect pick me up gift is still yet to be found, so I hit up my local coffee shop to lift my spirits in caffeine form :).

Outside of my failed rummaging and funk, I helped Caterpillar turn his empty apartment into a homey apartment! Want to test a strength of a relationship? Build furniture together hahaha. Jk jk, we made it out alive and not a scratch or toooo much bickering.

Now enough about me, please fill my comments with anything about you!!! All the things! The good, bad, ugly, sweet, funny, jokes, pictures, feelings – let me hear from you ❀ I will chat with you all soon!

❀ xoxo,

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Case of the Mondays

Hello friends & happy Monday!!

So, I tried to blog Friday, then again over the weekend and I just did not feel creative. I tried and wanted to chat with all of you but just could not find the words or…anything. It was sad! So today my friends, I am forcing myself and I do feel a little more lively today.  I FREAKING MISSED YOU!

Okay, so let’s see… what did I do this weekend…

Friday: I was brain dead. It was such a busy work week in comparison to what we have been and I dated things in July…so there was that. I FREAKING thought it was July friends. Needless to say, I went home and just shut down. As an introvert, too much stimuli can wear me down. I feel like I did not do much “self care” if you will – so powered down like a damn robot is what I did.  I came across this a while ago and it is so perfect & true. This was me… but imagine brown hair and 3 dogs around me versus the cat haha. Most people probably would think this is lame but, it is a necessity in order for me to be a somewhat social and functioning human being.

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Saturday: Was not much better. I am pretty sure I finally rolled out of bed at like 1P and showered at 3P. I nap, stir, watch Netflix and repeat. I did eventually order pizza and texted with a few people – very limited socializing haha. Then, a burst of energy hit and I started cleaning the house like a mad woman. Reorganizing my closet, still sifting through clothes for donations, dusted, put away my heavy boots (FINALLY!), steam cleaned the carpets and cleared a lot of clutter – my soul was much happier in the end. It was worth dealing with my dust allergy… kinda. Fun fact – my allergist told me that I should clean with a mask on. I have yet to do this, I find it silly but…. times like Saturday & Sunday I realize that perhaps I DO need one and that this doctor MAY know what he is talking about….maybe I will look for some fun ones? Anyway the “Mad Housewife that is NOT a wife at all but merely a crazed dog mom/cleaning machine vibe” continued into the wee hours  – look fucking out world! I am usually ready for bed by 10P!

Sunday: The madness continued. I decided I was going to shave my dog, I realize this may sound a bit… off. But I have fluffy dog problem and my girl Sydney was rocking some SERIOUS dog pantaloons? Pup-Pants? Fuzzy Butt? Butt fluff???? I am not sure what the correct term is but they were getting a bit out of control annnnnd her tail was a bit long too. So I channeled my inner dog groomer and went to town. I should have done a “before and after” but this all was a bit random and really did not plan for the fashion shoot πŸ• #fail. Regardless she seems like a happy pup! Just look at her!  My grooming skills must have passed the Syd test! β™₯️

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I hope everyone had a good start to the week! I am drained from the day (again) – sorry my that I don’t have too much to report…… EXCEPT FOR THESE BAD ASS SOCKS! πŸ‘‡πŸ» AREN’T THESE INCREDIBLE!? They are so me and btw…I have a thing for fabulous socks! Stripes, dots, houndstooth, nerdy and witty – love them all! 

 Monday morning gifts from friends are the best β™₯️ ! πŸ’πŸΌπŸ’πŸ»

That is really all I’ve got today guys, how was your weekend!? Tell me ALL THE THINGS. 
xoxo,

Monday coffee with… Ratrina??

Good morning/afternoon all!

I hope you all had a good weekend! I had plans to do things around the house….and really that just did not happen. My allergies are kicking my butt and I felt pretty damn blah most of the weekend from it.

I did hang out with Caterpillar, things have been on the up and up lately and that makes me happy. I can only do my best and see where it goes, right? AKA: baby steps with a guard up. He is a newer photographer and he moved into a new studio space this weekend! This is huge as he has only been β€œin the game” if you will – for a little over a year. I am so proud of him and his progress that my heart was exploding. I think once he builds his client list, he will be in a much happier space. I feel creative minds can suffer when they are in a mundane job full time. So here is to him and hoping that these good vibes keep going.

Don’t worry, I took some time for me too! Some self care time…with some pizza. I ignored my phone unless necessary. Unplugging-ish is so nice from time to time. I set specific alerts for the important people, so I only looked when I felt the need.

I also picked up a sketch pad for the first time in years, to truly give it a real shot again. It was Nerve-racking. It clearly it is one of those skill sets that is a β€œuse it or lose it” case because it was stressful, I hated the first line and I erased more than I sketched haha. I used to paint and draw sooo much and I just let it fall to the wayside -ugh. One of my goals is to try to build it back up again – we will see and I will of course share that process with you!

So some news – today marks 5 years at my job. I am not sure if I am really happy about it but I did get an increase, so yay!? I treated myself to a fabulous caffeinated beverage from Starbucks…I have a new name today as you can see from my featured image – Ratrina?? Something happened with that β€œK” is all I am saying haha! I have also been Catrina, which I let slide. I have also been Casandra. Not sure how I feel about this new one though haha.

NOWon to you!!! Tell me how your weekend went! I will also accept any ramblings, rants, random facts etc that you may have!

Thank you for reading!

xoxo,