Monday catch up with… Andrina? #Starbucksfail

Hello my friends!

I hope that you had a good weekend and that your coffee and tea is strong this lovely Monday!

It is raining here, which always puts me in a mood. Soooo to make me feel better, I bought a coffee the size of me annnnd now I am apparently known as: Andrina? This is a new one, well done Starbucks.

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So this past week has been a bit crazy and my brain is as hazy is the world outside my window, so I think I will do this catch up in: the good, bad & ugly bullets. Ahhh simplicity on a Monday – that is what I am talking about! So here we go!


The Good

  • Mad Hatter Brunch – This was my first vendor event with my fierce lady boss friend, whom that I typically refer to as Sunshine… this never fit right with me and have been searching my mind for a NEW code name for her for quite some time… Now she will be referred to as…(drumroll) Honeydukes. I know… You’re probably thinking – wtf? Just hear me out and try to follow my logic here: My lovely friend and I share a love of sweets, fun, HP and her hair is blonde…it seemed perfect! Right!? IDK IT MAKES SENSE TO ME! 😘ANYWAY back to the list… Honeydukes and I attended the Mad Hatter Brunch! The brunch was in support of pediatric cancer patients and their families, so it was such a good feeling to learn more about the organization, meet some other ladies and fellow vendors. In terms of good vibes, the place was packed with them! Additionally, there were a few vendor spots which Honeydukes snagged one – so I (procrastor) ended up throwing on a sun hat and sun dress and went to support, and most importantly – witness my mentor in action and take notes for my event comes…. you know at the end of the month. No stress here (nervous laughter)… so I observed, took it all in and tried to channel my inner extrovert and do my best lol. After a few tries myself, I’m sure I will be rocking it myself 🎩👒.
  • Cookie Dough Creamery – This is probably one of the most important things that has ever happened to me…ever. After the lovely Mad Hattery, Honeydukes introduced me to this shop where they have “safe” edible cookie dough (I eat raw cookie dough regardless #rebel) that you can top with ice cream and several other things like sprinkles, cookie crumbles and candies. Essentially, it was what I imagine heaven to be like and I just had to share this with you!
    • Do you have something similar where you live!? I must know!
  • Dawn Dagger Award – My lovely blogger friend and beautiful lady, comfykittea nominated me for the Dawn Dagger Award!! Thank you my dear and I will be following up with that soon! I am thinking of questions 🙂
  • Bachelor Pad – Caterpillar’s roommates moved out and he is now living on his own for the first time. So we have been busy the past week deep cleaning the place, gathering things and reorganizing so he can have his own little perfect space. Bonus!? I was able to pass some things on to him that was taking up space in my house and garage. YESSS! So who really is the winner here? ME! Just kidding.  So, I am excited for him….while he radiates some anxiety about this big step :).With that, I am happy to report that Caterpillar and I have been doing better…. *knock on wood*. Even through this stressful time for him :). Keep your fingers crossed my lovely people.
  • Avian Nemesis– Do you remember my turkey story? Well, my father asked me over for lunch Sunday….which meant that I would have to face the Foul Fowl again. I am not going to lie, I did not think I would ever see my father again while that rather bulbous feathered friend, alive and strutting around the farm house. Mocking me…peering at me with those beady eyes and large wing span. HOWEVER, I gave myself a pep-talk. Like, listen – you are human! Potentially one of the most dangerous (petite) creatures, do not be bullied by this white jerk. You are bigger…ish than him! You are smarter than him and today you will show him up! Sooooo I packed up my Sydney and we drove over, because she would totally save me if I happen to opossum out in fear of this….turkey – right!? I am happy to report that he was not waiting on me at the end of the drive way this time…oh but he was lurking in the shrubbery/grass area. Syd and I managed to get inside the house and relax a bit, not a feather on my mind….until we were ready to leave. I walked out to see him strutting around. WHO DOES THIS TURKEY THINK HE IS!? With a straightened back and mustered up courage, I walked with Syd to the car. I safely got Syd in the car so I could take a few steps “closer” to try to get a picture of this turkey and you know, fight my fears! Well…. as he heard me step closer, he slowly turned towards me and let out, nothing short of what I would call a War Gobble…again. He then proceeded to stalk in my direction. At this point, I was feeling a bit anxious. This is what I get for locking up my fierce protector in the car to ensure that she would be safe. Great, who was going to protect ME now. So… I tried to snap a picture of him for you guys to see this monster buuuuut my phone camera was only able to produce this grainy, super zoomed in picture of the jerk . My friends, meet my tormentor… FullSizeRender (7)The good news? I am happy to say that I ran back to my car and shut the door immediately after this photo was taken, because I am apparently being bullied by this round creature and I do not trust him! Syd and I are peck free and no turkeys were harmed…..but my ego may be. Until next time my feathered foe.

The Bad & The Ugly

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  • That Pap was NOT a wrap – So, I received the call. Yes, the call that we all dread from our gynecologist –  stating that my pap smear came back with abnormal cells and that I would have to go back for additional testing.  It appears that I will have to go back for something called an Colposcopy. Which essentially sounds like a pap on steroids and I may have to have a biopsy taken as well – depending on what they see. This kinda set the tone for my weekend, even though the nurse stated that this is “extremely common, just preventative, your other tests of HPV, gonorrhea and chlamydia were negative.” My mind just zeroed in on the “abnormal” portion, like what does this mean and how!? It did not matter that she seemed un-phased, perhaps snacking while explaining that this was not as scary as it sounds and my abnormality was “extremely mild.”Listen, I have serious anxieties and have a tendency to obsess and run/jump/catapult to worst case scenario. My colposcopy is not scheduled until the end of June so, I get to wait a bit before having this done. Here is a better description of the exam (in case you did not know like myself):“Colposcopy is a way for your doctor to use a special magnifying device to look at your vulva, vagina, and cervix. If the doctor sees a problem, he or she can take a small sample of tissue (biopsy) from the cervix or from inside the opening of the cervix. The sample is looked at under a microscope…During the test, your doctor uses a lighted magnifying device that looks like a pair of binoculars. This device is called a colposcope. It allows your doctor to see problems that would be missed by the naked eye. A camera can be attached to the colposcope to take pictures or videos of the vagina and cervix. Your doctor may put vinegar (acetic acid) and sometimes iodine on the vagina and cervix with a cotton swab or cotton balls. It allows the doctor to see problem areas more clearly.”WebMD
    ^me…all weekend

    Now, I know that many “non-scary” things can cause inflammation or can impact your cervical exam but it is hard to keep that in mind when the word “cancer” is mentioned but I am trying to stay positive. I have not really told anyone because… for some reason I feel ashamed or embarrassed?  I have no reason to feel this way but sadly I cannot shake it off TSwift style just yet.

    So I guess I have a few questions for my ladies out there:
    -Have you had this procedure done (colposcopy)? If so, any tips? How did it turn out for you?
    Have you received the “abnormal” call before?

     

I think that is about it really, I hope you all had a good weekend, tell me all about it!!! Also, if you don’t mind, send me some calming and good luck vibes, you know with my raging anxieties and chaotic life haha. I love and appreciate you all! ❤

xoxo,
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Not So Thriving Thursday

Hello – it’s me! I missed ALL OF YOU!

I think it is safe to say that I have made it through our “hiring frenzy” over the past 2 weeks – WHEW. I hope to be back in the blogging game starting now – yessssss! I really do miss reading up on you guys, sorry for being a bad friend and being so far behind, I feel like I am letting you guys down and it makes me sad. I promise to dedicate some time to that asap! ❤

So I guess I can give you a quick life update before diving into my reader. Also, since my brain is still a bit foggy/fried/overstimulated – I am going to do a random bullet list. Simple, easy thoughts on life….should not be too hard right!? Let’s see…

  • Doggos: While neatly trimmed and oh so loving, I think my 3 pups are trying to kill me. They have been fond of romping around in the middle of the night and needing to be let out multiple times throughout the night over the past week. I did not get settled into bed until 2:30A last night. There was some anxiety issues with this as well, but mostly CRAZED MUTTS! I try so hard to give them all the love, the ear scratches, refuse to walk out on my job to keep kibble in the bowls! This is how they repay me!? YESH! Thanks puppers 😉 I really do love them though – just want that to be noted!
  • Fatigue: Is an understatement for me over the past week. I mean, I think adulthood in general is a giant blur of fatigue but this has been a new level for me. Sadly even while feeling so tired that my body aches and my nerve endings feel on fire – I still cannot sleep well. I may have to bust out the ole trazodone again 😦 which also makes me sad. I just want a normal functioning body…. k thx! I am sure the work load and still raging pollen count has something to do with it… right?
  • Officially ANTI-SOCIAL:  Well, kinda. As I mentioned a few posts back, I was participating in the IG @omgkenzieee #selflovebootcamp – which sounded so good in theory but it just got too hard…then I got really far behind. So there went my weekly posting idea versus the daily. I guess you could say I have officially given up. That’s right, I am a quitter. I still follow the tag and friends that I made the first couple weeks…er… week? They are warriors indeed and perhaps I am just a little bunny that is lost. Kudos to all the ladies out there who is still putting their bodies out there and fighting for the MUST body positive movement. You girls go! I will cheer from over here, by over here I mean with this pizza and probably a blanket.
  • Mood: I have been in a low mood since yesterday. There is no sun, only rain and my stubby legs did not make it over “large” leap over a puddle this morning and…my feet, flats and legs were wet for most of the morning. It did not help things 😦 . I guess I am being a Grumpy Kat….
  • Buffoonery: First, can I say that I love this word? Why is it not utilized more? Anyway… I love to take pictures and while looking through my 3k photos on my phone, I realized that I had quite the range of random snaps, downloaded memes, inspirational quotes and even raunchy ridiculous memes all in between all the photos of my rebellious mutts. I was thinking that I wanted to put together a quick movie/slideshow? I guess you could say? That shows some of my pics and randomness that I love and snatched off the interwebs….just to give you a show? So you can see what I find is interesting, I hope you will tell me your thoughts on it!

Happy Friday friends! Here are my ramblings and a request for blogging advice!

Hello friends!

I hope you all are excited for the weekend, do you have any plans? Take over the world? blanket cocoon? Spring cleaning? Movies? Family events?? The list can go on and on, but you get the idea haha.

I think I need to focus back on my list of “to-dos” and perhaps do something for my home. Something to help brighten it up a bit or maybe…just maybe fix one of the million things that needs to be done *sigh* home-ownership meh.

Anyway, back to blogging fun! Since I am still fairly new at this whole blog thing, I was wondering if you could give me some advice for starting out. By this I mean, I have a few questions and thoughts and if you don’t mind, could you share your thoughts!? Here we go:

  • Do you have social media pages for your blog? Do you find them helpful or no? Pros/cons if you will. I don’t use them personally but I was curious to hear about this one
  • I verified my webpages for search engines?? So I think that is good?
  • Bloglovin’ – so I think once I post this blog, I will have “verified” or “claimed” my blog. I am new to this as well haha. Are there any other places to do this? I am obviously social networking/fun blog tools challenged… 😀
  • Do you participate in any WP challenges? For example, I did my first one Wednesday for my photo. I enjoyed it and was thinking I could learn more about them and see if some of the ones that you complete would be fun for me too!
  • Do you share your blog with your friends and family?
  • Do you use any tools/apps/software etc. to assist in your blogging? If so, do you mind sharing!?

I think that is all I’ve got for now. I greatly appreciate you all reading and advice!

Also, if you have not already done so, could you please please please (beggin’ here!) complete my form that will help me get to know all of you better!? You can find it here!

 <–look at this cat! how could you not!? ❤

A special thanks to those who have already completed it!

Thanks again loves and talk to you soon!❤️

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Being a bleeding heart in a cold world. 

I have always been one of those, anti-social media gals for a while. Of course I grew up with MySpace and Facebook but for me, it always seemed to invite negativity in my life in one way or another, so I removed myself from it years ago.

However, I did try out Instagram last year as I felt, okay – this is more just pictures and small captions, not so much a never ending flood of public feuds, nasty comments or what I would call “perfect” life syndrome. At first, I felt that this was a good way to stay connected without as much negativity but over the year I found that Instagram also started to bring me down. Of course, I fell in love with plenty of dogs, cute  or funny videos and kept in contact with some friends but things started to take a turn for me.

Over the past few months, I have started to see such a publication and encouragement of what I call poor behavior. This came in many ways but some of the most common alarming trends were:

  • “Savage”  lifestyle – which from what I gathered was openly and happily doing people wrong, being rude or disrespectful. This includes  family and friends.
  • Women’s “Hoe” life – why are some women so excited to be be like, well I got 5 significant others or boyfriends so if your man does something you don’t like or god forbid you miscommunicated, women are going out and getting those revenge free  dinners, sex, texting other men or messing around with their significant other’s best friends? Of course I know this can go with both genders but specifically women have seemed to be more common.
  • Relationships – there are a few things that fall under this section for me. For example, women getting very worked up over men liking others posts, not liking every picture they post etc. I feel like if you are more worried about if your SO liked your 3rd selfie of the day, you may need to do a little more reflecting. People leave eachother over these things. I have read that the best relationships are the ones that are not plastered all over social media…I think there is something to be said about it.
  • Stalking – I know curiosity hits us all, but there can come a time where it can become unhealthy . Whether it’s friends, past friends, exes, idols or even when your ex’s new partner stalks you too and vice versa. There are memes about it and we all know it’s out there but being self aware and not encouraging this behavior. There is a reason there are memes about women saying they can find out  anything, more details than the FBI within 10 min. I have witnessed this with my own eyes (men and women) and I’m unsure how I feel about it, other than uncomfortable.

Perhaps I’m just  ranting, or my old soul is really showing at this point. But I ended up deciding that Instagram no longer was a good fit for me. I just disabled my account for this past week for various reasons. Mostly the above  list, because I am not that kind of person, woman, friend or relative. I am loyal to a fault and only fall in love with souls. Vanity and materials will never be my priority.

I have been told that I give too many  chances, too kind, love too much and it seems that most find it a weakness. While it can be lonely at times, because so many are colder, don’t fall in love with souls but faces, and give in to the negative world – I can say that I am happy with who I am.

Most don’t understand my ways, nor will they ever. Especially when mental health is involved – I’m fine being me. Big hearted, giving and “weak” me.

What are your thoughts on social media? Especially in this day. Do you feel the same? Do you feel social media can impact mental health and why? Please leave your thoughts and experiences  in the comments. If myou don’t mind, include your age as well. I am just wondering if there is a pattern among ages.

Thank you so listening and I hope to hear from you! Have a wonderful evening ❤️.

Xoxo,

Katrina