Monday catch up with… Andrina? #Starbucksfail

Hello my friends!

I hope that you had a good weekend and that your coffee and tea is strong this lovely Monday!

It is raining here, which always puts me in a mood. Soooo to make me feel better, I bought a coffee the size of me annnnd now I am apparently known as: Andrina? This is a new one, well done Starbucks.

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So this past week has been a bit crazy and my brain is as hazy is the world outside my window, so I think I will do this catch up in: the good, bad & ugly bullets. Ahhh simplicity on a Monday – that is what I am talking about! So here we go!


The Good

  • Mad Hatter Brunch – This was my first vendor event with my fierce lady boss friend, whom that I typically refer to as Sunshine… this never fit right with me and have been searching my mind for a NEW code name for her for quite some time… Now she will be referred to as…(drumroll) Honeydukes. I know… You’re probably thinking – wtf? Just hear me out and try to follow my logic here: My lovely friend and I share a love of sweets, fun, HP and her hair is blonde…it seemed perfect! Right!? IDK IT MAKES SENSE TO ME! 😘ANYWAY back to the list… Honeydukes and I attended the Mad Hatter Brunch! The brunch was in support of pediatric cancer patients and their families, so it was such a good feeling to learn more about the organization, meet some other ladies and fellow vendors. In terms of good vibes, the place was packed with them! Additionally, there were a few vendor spots which Honeydukes snagged one – so I (procrastor) ended up throwing on a sun hat and sun dress and went to support, and most importantly – witness my mentor in action and take notes for my event comes…. you know at the end of the month. No stress here (nervous laughter)… so I observed, took it all in and tried to channel my inner extrovert and do my best lol. After a few tries myself, I’m sure I will be rocking it myself 🎩👒.
  • Cookie Dough Creamery – This is probably one of the most important things that has ever happened to me…ever. After the lovely Mad Hattery, Honeydukes introduced me to this shop where they have “safe” edible cookie dough (I eat raw cookie dough regardless #rebel) that you can top with ice cream and several other things like sprinkles, cookie crumbles and candies. Essentially, it was what I imagine heaven to be like and I just had to share this with you!
    • Do you have something similar where you live!? I must know!
  • Dawn Dagger Award – My lovely blogger friend and beautiful lady, comfykittea nominated me for the Dawn Dagger Award!! Thank you my dear and I will be following up with that soon! I am thinking of questions 🙂
  • Bachelor Pad – Caterpillar’s roommates moved out and he is now living on his own for the first time. So we have been busy the past week deep cleaning the place, gathering things and reorganizing so he can have his own little perfect space. Bonus!? I was able to pass some things on to him that was taking up space in my house and garage. YESSS! So who really is the winner here? ME! Just kidding.  So, I am excited for him….while he radiates some anxiety about this big step :).With that, I am happy to report that Caterpillar and I have been doing better…. *knock on wood*. Even through this stressful time for him :). Keep your fingers crossed my lovely people.
  • Avian Nemesis– Do you remember my turkey story? Well, my father asked me over for lunch Sunday….which meant that I would have to face the Foul Fowl again. I am not going to lie, I did not think I would ever see my father again while that rather bulbous feathered friend, alive and strutting around the farm house. Mocking me…peering at me with those beady eyes and large wing span. HOWEVER, I gave myself a pep-talk. Like, listen – you are human! Potentially one of the most dangerous (petite) creatures, do not be bullied by this white jerk. You are bigger…ish than him! You are smarter than him and today you will show him up! Sooooo I packed up my Sydney and we drove over, because she would totally save me if I happen to opossum out in fear of this….turkey – right!? I am happy to report that he was not waiting on me at the end of the drive way this time…oh but he was lurking in the shrubbery/grass area. Syd and I managed to get inside the house and relax a bit, not a feather on my mind….until we were ready to leave. I walked out to see him strutting around. WHO DOES THIS TURKEY THINK HE IS!? With a straightened back and mustered up courage, I walked with Syd to the car. I safely got Syd in the car so I could take a few steps “closer” to try to get a picture of this turkey and you know, fight my fears! Well…. as he heard me step closer, he slowly turned towards me and let out, nothing short of what I would call a War Gobble…again. He then proceeded to stalk in my direction. At this point, I was feeling a bit anxious. This is what I get for locking up my fierce protector in the car to ensure that she would be safe. Great, who was going to protect ME now. So… I tried to snap a picture of him for you guys to see this monster buuuuut my phone camera was only able to produce this grainy, super zoomed in picture of the jerk . My friends, meet my tormentor… FullSizeRender (7)The good news? I am happy to say that I ran back to my car and shut the door immediately after this photo was taken, because I am apparently being bullied by this round creature and I do not trust him! Syd and I are peck free and no turkeys were harmed…..but my ego may be. Until next time my feathered foe.

The Bad & The Ugly

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  • That Pap was NOT a wrap – So, I received the call. Yes, the call that we all dread from our gynecologist –  stating that my pap smear came back with abnormal cells and that I would have to go back for additional testing.  It appears that I will have to go back for something called an Colposcopy. Which essentially sounds like a pap on steroids and I may have to have a biopsy taken as well – depending on what they see. This kinda set the tone for my weekend, even though the nurse stated that this is “extremely common, just preventative, your other tests of HPV, gonorrhea and chlamydia were negative.” My mind just zeroed in on the “abnormal” portion, like what does this mean and how!? It did not matter that she seemed un-phased, perhaps snacking while explaining that this was not as scary as it sounds and my abnormality was “extremely mild.”Listen, I have serious anxieties and have a tendency to obsess and run/jump/catapult to worst case scenario. My colposcopy is not scheduled until the end of June so, I get to wait a bit before having this done. Here is a better description of the exam (in case you did not know like myself):“Colposcopy is a way for your doctor to use a special magnifying device to look at your vulva, vagina, and cervix. If the doctor sees a problem, he or she can take a small sample of tissue (biopsy) from the cervix or from inside the opening of the cervix. The sample is looked at under a microscope…During the test, your doctor uses a lighted magnifying device that looks like a pair of binoculars. This device is called a colposcope. It allows your doctor to see problems that would be missed by the naked eye. A camera can be attached to the colposcope to take pictures or videos of the vagina and cervix. Your doctor may put vinegar (acetic acid) and sometimes iodine on the vagina and cervix with a cotton swab or cotton balls. It allows the doctor to see problem areas more clearly.”WebMD
    ^me…all weekend

    Now, I know that many “non-scary” things can cause inflammation or can impact your cervical exam but it is hard to keep that in mind when the word “cancer” is mentioned but I am trying to stay positive. I have not really told anyone because… for some reason I feel ashamed or embarrassed?  I have no reason to feel this way but sadly I cannot shake it off TSwift style just yet.

    So I guess I have a few questions for my ladies out there:
    -Have you had this procedure done (colposcopy)? If so, any tips? How did it turn out for you?
    Have you received the “abnormal” call before?

     

I think that is about it really, I hope you all had a good weekend, tell me all about it!!! Also, if you don’t mind, send me some calming and good luck vibes, you know with my raging anxieties and chaotic life haha. I love and appreciate you all! ❤

xoxo,
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Versatile Blogger Award!

Hello beautiful friends!

I hope you had a great long weekend and I will make sure to catch you up on mine in a later post…however, now is the time that I FINALLY do my Versatile Blogger Award post! YAY!!!!

Thank you so much to my nominator, @tiredmindtypingfingers ❤ . She is a lovely fellow mental health and chronic illness warrior, please check out her blog regarding her journey and fabulous writings HERE.

Even though I am super late in doing this post, I am so freaking grateful. I still feel so new to this and for someone to enjoy my blog of ramblings, rants and overall kind of sad theme makes me super happy. Thank you again kind – Tired Mind Typing Fingers, I love you and so glad we met here!

The Rules:

The rules say to thank the person who nominated you (also providing a link to their blog), nominate 10 blogs you feel should be awarded, and then share 7 interesting facts about yourself.

The 10 blogs I’m nominating for the Versatile Blogger Award:

(I apologize if you’ve already been nominated before – if you have, feel free to skip out on making a post!)

  1. Tom Schultz – http://spiritinpolitics.wordpress.com/
  2. Natalie Vinh – http://natalievinh.com/
  3. My Journey by Carla Cressy – http://myjourneybycarlacressy.wordpress.com/
  4. hell0chloe – http://midnightwander.wordpress.com/
  5. helloitsjo – http://helloitsjo.com/
  6.  Feeling Suicidal Blog – http://feelingsuicidalblog.wordpress.com/
  7.  Leslie J – Glimpse of My Mind 
  8. bexoxo – http://bexoxoblog.wordpress.com/
  9. Chelia – http://pinkfordays.wordpress.com/
  10. Quinn –  When do I get the Manual?

 

 

And lastly, the 7 tidbits about me:

  1. In order for me to be a functioning human-being, I need coffee. Pre-coffee, my hair is a bit disheveled, I may have eyeliner going down my face (despite my my best scrubbing), things just do not make sense, simple thoughts are difficult and thing moves in slow-mo. Essentially, my blood is not red, it looks like and smells of fresh coffee.
  2. I have 3 rambunctious rescue mix pups – who like to drive me nuts and listen to everyone else in the world…but me.
  3. After cleaning my garage this weekend, it should be know that I have 3 N64 consoles, 1 NES OG console and still missing a WII U Game Pad some how?
  4. I almost lost my right baby toe due to a Brown Recluse. To this day, I cannot look a tiny harmless spider without breaking out into a sweat and running. Or blindly put my foot inside another shoe without shaking it.
  5. When learning to drive my father’s truck, he almost forced me to use a telephone book or pillow as a booster to see over the dash. Turns out, I made it work WITHOUT IT. k thx Dad.
  6. I sent my first international letter EVER to fellow blogger, Cheila and cannot wait to hear when she actually receives it. I want to know how long it takes for letters to get from Ohio to Portugal! I am nerding about about this btw.
  7. I am allergic to dust and mold. In additional to seasonal allergies, so you know… after garage cleaning for 3 days – I cannot breathe.

Thanks for taking the time to read this! I love you all, thanks again @tiredmindtypingfingers for nominating me, you are the best!

To the ones I nominated, if you have already completed one – please disregard but know that I was thinking of you. To the ones who have not, I cannot wait to learn more about you!

Until later! xoxo

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Rosy cheeks, music and sloth mode photo challenge addition.

Hello my friends!

Happy Wednesday! What the hell where did the time go!? Well… I missed last weeks photo challenge. I totally thought I would get that posted before hand – oops! So here are my additions to the WP Weekly Photo Challenge – Reflecting :

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WHEW! Now that I can sleep tonight for adding those, I will add this weeks another day haha.


Back to life…

GIVE ME RED WINE OR GIVE ME DEATH: Adulthood is filled with doctor’s appointments. Seriously, I have been to some sort of doc like 3 times in the past week. BTW annual check ups are so important, make sure you are scheduling them and taking care of yourself!

Ahem… excuse my Mom moment there.

Today’s visit was to the dermatologist.

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Grey’s Anatomy – Brave New World (Dermatology Episode)

I have never had the pleasure and of course when I would go, there was an irate fella screaming at the poor derm assistants. I felt bad for them. Here they are, in this lovely place and Mr. I have been late the past 3 times (from what my sonar ears overheard) was not happy that he made this trip again without being seen….apparently this man needs a watch or a lesson in punctuality….I was not the one to make mention to this angry little man.

I did not realize that I needed my Hulk pants on today nor did I realize that I needed to channel my inner Bruce Banner to get my irritated skin checked out. Also, I was just completed “Active Aggressor” training for work last week, it was still fresh in my mind. RUN, HIDE OR FIGHT was replaying in my head…also the fact that I should always go for the eyes if I indeed do choose to fight. This was the lovely Public Safety/Secret Service man’s words, not mine. So keep that in mind friends! ALWAYS GO FOR THE EYES! Or hide, which will probably be my go to.

Anyway! Back to my skin…No my friends, green hulk skin was not my issue (or perhaps the lack there of was?) – redness is my issue. I have been struggling with sensitive skin for as long as I can remember. Unfortunately, as I have aged it has progressed into angry, all the green concealer in the world will not cover this shade issue. Additionally, my skin started to get lesions, more broken capillaries, itchiness and my face just fucking hurts now. So, I figured now is the time. The lovely Doc looked at my makeup-less face and immediately said rosacea. Of course, I figured this by all my “expert” Googling and experiences. This obviously needs to be fixed  because, how am I am going to convince a man to “put a ring” on it one day  looking wine drunk 24/7! Jk…Kinda .  

 Then it happened… this man had the nerve to inform me of “triggers” that worsen this rosy cheek/lush/always embarrassed look… Spicy foods – no prob, I do not really care for it but RED WINE!? I LOVE RED WINE! “white is better for rosacea patients…”

I am sorry? Clearly this man does not know me…which we did just meet so I will give him a pass because…. red is the only wine that I really enjoy. So…as he writes up my new care plan and writing scripts, I am thinking about my coffee that is waiting in my car for me… that must now “be left to cool” or drink iced coffee to help with this whole “situation.” FINE. So the very important part of this story is… Do you happen to have any White Wine recommendations?! I guess I am going to have to find my budget puny wine in white… that is right. I picked up this bottle of “Sheep Thrills” based solely on the pun. I live shamelessly…Or sheepishly? !

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Just take it all in… it’s beautiful^. Wait…WHAT IF I AM A LUSH!?

Moving on!

Music in my ears: Something crazy happened today, I actually listened to music at work. I had mentioned this in a blog a long time ago regarding my depression. I have recently been listening to it in the car and now in the office. I honestly cannot remember the last time I did this. Not even bird songs….which is a whole other thing. Just silence. I am sure this means something… perhaps everything is coming back together. I am feeling closer to friends, I am getting more motivated (aka – I set up my printer and cleaned my office!), I have new business adventures on the horizon and loving it. Caterpillar…well we are talking and doing okay at the moment, there is more SUN now that we are in Spring FULL SWING! So…without me realizing it, perhaps I popped out of the rabbit hole for a bit? My co-worker even noticed the music playing today… that is a real friend by the way 🙂 they know you better than you know yourself.

Blog LogI just wanted to take this tim to thank all of my followers again! I cannot believe that I have 200 people who are actively or once interested in what I have to say. You guys are pretty much the best! I have made friends around the world, found fellow sufferers/warriors of different kinds and with different backgrounds regarding mental health and chronic illnesses (thank you for all your support and I hope you feel supported from me as well!). I have also found fellow lovers of photos and snapping them – it is so wonderful to have you all here *ugly cry face*. THANK YOU AGAIN!

Speaking of Blog Love, I was nominated for a Versatile Blogger Award! THANK YOU @tiredmindtypingfingers ! I did not forget and will be posting it soon – PROMISE!

xoxoxo,

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Cramm Award 🙏🏻

I am so happy to report that I was recently nominated by the wonderful Mintyfreshie to do the Cramm Award! 

The Cramm Award was created by a blogger called Liv, who made a really cool website called The Cramm

Here are the rules for this award:

  1. Include a little bit about who created this award (with a link) and mention the person the who nominated you
  2. Share 3 things that motivate you to blog and share 3 people that motivate you to blog as well
  3. Share one thing you hope to do that will improve the world
  4. Answer your challenge question
  5. Nominate 10 (or more if you want) bloggers and give them a challenge question

3 things that motivate me to blog:

  • Health – sharing my  story, challenges and victories with others is truly therapeutic to me. I have met so many supportive and like minded people on here already and I feel truly blessed and not as alone as I thought. I like to think that my fellow supporters and sufferers of anxiety and adepression as warriors and that we are in  this together!
  • Education – WordPress contains a wealth of knowledge. I have explored many topics through discover and by browsing other blogs. Whether it’s cultural, life hacks, DIY, support or trending topics – I have so much to learn and have already. I enjoy learning about others backgrounds and reading their life progressions . 
  • Pictures – I do not travel much sadly so I can see the world through others! I love this, it had an art aspect that I respect dearly and little tidbits of info of the area. It’s beautiful to explore with you! 

3 bloggers who inspire/motivate me:

  • Quinn – When do I get the manual?
  • Charity – Cup of Charity
  • Chelia – Pink for Days
  • And of course Mintyfreshie!

Share one thing you hope to do that will improve the world:

  • By spreading the word of anxiety and depression, connecting with others – I hope to help break the stigma for mental illness. Even in a small capacity, I would consider that a win! 

If you could bring one person back to life, who would it be and why?

  • Eleanor Roosevelt – She was an incredible and inspiring woman in regards to her strength, her work in politics and humanitarianism. 

**Challenge question for my nominees!**

Name 3 things that you love about yourself. 


nominate: 

  • Quinn
  • Charity
  • Chelia
  • Kristen Walker
  • Ha N. 
  • Dav
  • MMoly01 
  • One-Way to Health
  • Chaos-XD
  • Rhea
  • Bexoxo

    Thanks for taking your time to read my post and super excited for my first award! I hope you all have a great evening – I will be writing a life update this weekend. 

    ❤️💋