Hello blogosphere! I hope you are doing well and that your coffee is extra strong this Monday morning <3. I just wanted to drop by and let you know that I am still here and a little update of course.
This weekend, fall really came through. I had to turn on my heater – gasp! We went from almost 90 degrees to 50? OVERNIGHT. Needless to say, I embraced my blanket-rito and watched Halloween baking shows…occasionally would grab some food and water! Ok, my Ohio rant is over! BUT… I do want to note that I do enjoy fall…just I would like to welcome it in a progression haha.
Over the past few weeks, my mental state has been what I will call…. bat shit crazy err erratic. I have stayed on top of my meds, no alcohol and yet I have had some serious episodes of paranoia, insecurity and shutting down.
In fact, I still feel dead inside.
Navigating life when you feel this way – takes incredible strength. Especially when you are stubborn like myself and do not really share my turmoil as it is happening. I want to find the reason of why this is/had happened and I really cannot pin point the cause. Which probably means it is a collection of things.
I just do not feel good enough… Even though I know I am a good person deep down.
I have had a few things bounce around in my head lately and maybe you can share your own thoughts here:
- What does it take to be a good human?
- What does it take to be a good significant other?
- How do you handle social media in your relationships? This can include significant other, friends and family!
- What is the best age?
- How do you fight insecurity or is this not an issue for you?
- Have you ever been sexually assaulted and if you told someone, did they believe you? (post on this to follow soon)
- Are you close with your family?
- What has been your favorite gift from the holidays?
- Do you have endometriosis or reproductive concerns that has impacted your relationship and how do you deal?
As you can see, my thoughts are a bit all over the place! So please feel free to add your comments or even your own thoughts that have been looming in your mind as well.
I hope you all have a fantastic day ❤
Until next time,
Kat
diaryofthemadkatter.com 
1. Compassion
2. Thoughtfulness (i.e. considerate)
3. I limit what I share.
4. 26 has been one hell of a year! 🙂
5. We are only given one life to live. Will I regret not doing this when I’m older? Why fit in when you were born to standout? -these are just somethings I tell/ask myself.
6. Oh honey… if you want my full story about my sexual assault/abuse, go to the beginning of my blog posts; I wrote out my entire story. In the end, yes, people believed me, but I had to put up one hell of a fight.
7. With my mom, yes. With my dad and brother, not as much, but I enjoy my time with them. The rest of my family, not so much.
8. I am one who enjoys giving gifts more than receiving, so my favorite that I’ve gifted (at least that I can remember) was a copper bookmark to my husband that was stamped with the lyrics of a song that we both love and has meaning to us.
9. I do not, nor I’m I certain I even want children….
Hope things get easier for you soon, my dear. ❤
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Hello lovely! Thank you for stopping by and leaving your thoughts and love! I always enjoy seeing your name pop up 🙂 I am going to have to go back in your blog for that article, I am very sorry that you had to go through that *hugs* I am also a big gift giver! Idk I feel weird when people give me gifts haha I am sure some people are like whhhhat? The bookmark sounds so perfect though – personalized gifts make me smile ❤ I hope you have a great week love! ❤
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