Monday Mumbles

Hello friends & happy Monday!

I just took a peek at my last post and it has been a freaking month since I posted something in depth.

So… I guess you could say I have been struggling.

I do not seem to have a real reason for this. Or maybe the list is too long for me to process. I have therapy tomorrow, so hopefully I can figure some things out.

Some things that have been bouncing around in my head:

  • I strongly considered deleting my blog. I feel like maybe I am too fucked up to even form a thought, let alone something coherent for you to read. However, thanks to you all for keeping up some views, comments and a special thank you to Quinn over at When do I get the Manual.  If you have not had a chance to check out her blog – please do! It is amazing and she is a fantastic writer – someone that I have looked to for blog inspiration for a long time now. SO if she can encourage me to keep going. Dammit I am going to try!

  • Motorcycle riding is equally stressful and freeing. I love it so much and it is truly the only time that I truly “unplug.” I should probably do that more.
    • I have taken on freeways and night riding – woo!

  • Speaking of unplugging, I have been toying with the idea of closing social media. I would keep my blog of course but as many of you have experienced, sometimes social media can chew you up, spit you out and perform a perfectly timed choreographed dance on your self-esteem. Then comes the mental health decline & as much as I want to chant “do not compare yourself to strangers on the internet,” I still do. I have closed several accounts over my years for this reason – sigh. It comes and goes. Also, not so sure it’s great for relationships hahaha. We have all seen those articles or memes right?  Uggghhh – well it all goes hand in hand right?
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Sad but…this seems to be true!

  • I realize that I have gone full on recluse. It was unintentional, I did not even realize I was doing it but…I have been a very solitary human lately. I am sure my friends noticed way before I did and I must start forcing myself back into the world.

  • Napping has become one of my favorite self care practices …or hobby at this point!
  • I have had some notable events happen with my other half. Some that I am still unsure of. Nothing too crazy but enough to make me wonder if this I am more invested than him & how I should move forward.

So a lot has been ping-ponging back and forth in my head. Unfortunately, I think I am more depressed than I thought. So here is to working on digging out of that hole, reconnecting with ALL OF YOU and taking care of myself.

**I hope everyone is doing fantastic in life and please share some thing with me that has happened recently! Life event, joke, a meme or article that struck home for you.**

Until next time,

K<3

5 thoughts on “Monday Mumbles”

  1. Irene says:
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    Hey Kat!! Long time no chat! I certainly am glad to see you posting again! I feel you- sometimes I am tempted to delete social media… it can become exhausting. Sometimes I actually practice ‘Post but don’t scroll’ to take a break but keep my foot in the door- other weeks I do social media blackouts (usually when I travel). Hopefully you can find a great rhythm again! I would hate to hear you deleted your blog! Cheers! 🙂

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  2. fraziersracket says:
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    I want to reiterate what you said…Quinn at When do I Get the Manual is a FANTASTIC writer!! And, welcome back! Even if it’s just for a little while, it’s OK. We all just do what we can.

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  4. Quinn says:
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    “I feel like maybe I am too fucked up to even form a thought, let alone something coherent for you to read.”

    Ah Kat, but we are all fucked up. And trust me I think we all have those days where you just feel like sleeping for six years. I think I’m having one of those days today, actually!

    Don’t put yourself under pressure. Don’t let the likes consume you; social media is only fun as long as you don’t take it too seriously!

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  5. Nat says:
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    Unplugging from social media can be a nice break to give yourself room to relax in the real world and do whatever you want without expecting incoming notifications to interrupt you. I can relate to wanting to delete my blog and feeling too fucked up to share anything worthwhile. I believe everyone has their own struggles in some way, it’s just not everyone in the whole world is on WordPress writing about them.

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