I hope you had a great weekend! Did you do anything fun? How are you all doing?!
The weekend was low key for me, I attacked the local antique stores again. I have been hunting for the perfect side chair(s) for my living room. I had a large 1.5 chair which was lovely but my little hobbit home is just too small for it. I feel like it was taking over…so I found a new chair fit for a queen! It swivels, rocks and super cozy :). Now to keep my 70lb doggo off of it… He kinda wore the last one in…with his large cat/dog ways. UGH! Anyway… her she is! I think it will be great for reading 😀
Let’s see, what else was important…
Caterpillar – This past Sunday marked 1 year that Caterpillar and I have been going up and down the madness of dating. Still unsure how I feel about it some days, dating is soooo fucking weird at this age. I don’t like it…can some poor soul just take me in and love me…also with 3 dogs (sorry)… kthx! But really, since I care for him a lot, it meant something to me. Since we have legit had breaks, here, there, everywhere (I felt this was about to go Seussian). But I don’t think it qualifies for actual anniversary? Or does it?….so I called it our “anniversary-ish/whatever you want to call it/thanks for putting up with me for 365 days in your life/Mainly me putting up with you” day. sigh, Men. Things were going so well, then of course we have a spat on said Sunday afternoon and it just kinda sucked, especially since I was already stressed about my test. So there is that…we are still rebounding, but we are better. Ah relationships *eyeroll* I plan to make a Lego trail around his bed soon, just because watching him step on one, may bring me a giggle :D. Okay okay, that may be mean and unnecessary, but it was just a thought – I have not done it yet!
Colposcopy (GYN) FU – Monday was the big day…aka: test day. I am going to be honest, I have been stressed about my abnormal pap legit for a month. I have dove into many online searches, articles, forums, fell down the rabbit hole and crawled back out…prob 1,000 times over the course of said month. I am almost 30, I just want to be healthy – for the love of jebus. I have gone through so much over the past year plus (and health issues in general), I just want a break, I am just so tired.
Anyway, the test was as uncomfortable as I imagined. The microscope used, kinda reminded me of Wall-E…not gonna lie. A much skinnier cousin version but please just look – do you see it!?
It felt like forever, but in reality, it was not that long – I was out in about a half hour. The mass amount of large q-tips terrified me and all the weird labeled jars staring me down while I waited half naked in my lime green argyle knee socks … needless to say, I started to panic, sweaty palms, the room was closing in & I was falling apart haha. Of course I would… day of…
So the exam went well over all I guess. There was a spot or two? (I blanked through out most of this aka: opossum’d) that she needed to send off for biopsy :(. I was hoping magically there would be nothing this time, that maybe I just had random inflammation on my original pap. Oyi! However, that was not the case. Needless to say, I have not slept well the last couple days from anxiety and until I see the results that specifically state negative – I will probably still worry. Sigh. My Dr said she was not too worried, I will be fine and I probably will just have to wait it out. I am “young and healthy and it should go away on its own.”
Uh. Healthy? Me!? hahaha so I made it I guess, I am just a sore, grumpy and stressed gal at this point. I want it over. You can find me in my fort that I made out of chairs and a blanket later… eating cocoa puffs. People with generalized anxiety should not have to wait this long for a resolution, I feel like I have aged significantly over this nonsense. Mostly self inflicted but…hey, I can’t help it.
Really, that is about it. I am getting back into the swing of things for work since I was gone most of the day. I spoiled myself with a large coffee and I hope the day goes quickly.
So again, tell me how your weekend was! How are you doing!? Memes, jokes and drawings are also encouraged 🙂