28 going on 40!? Today was therapy day. Β 

Hello friends πŸ‘‹πŸ»

I had therapy today. I found a wonderful therapist last year, so it’s not nearly as painful as it once was. I think that is key – honestly. Find your match if you will ☺️. I did and find it super helpful and recommend it. If you just need that one unbiased person to help you soul searching and battle things you didn’t even know – give it a try. 

The only downside to this, each session leaves me drained. It takes everything out of me but I guess that’s the point eh? Purge your damn soul to this person, who in turn asks hard questions about YOU. Which makes me so uncomfortable. I have no problem focusing on anyone  else, taking care of people is what I call my super power. 

Anyway I wanted to touch base with my followers but I’m struggling to be witty at the moment so I will switch to listing the good, the bad and the ugly of my day πŸ™πŸ». 

The Good:

  • I was told I have a soul of a 40 something. I find this endearing for some reason. Lol. 
  • I was not late for work today – winning. 
  • Work went by quickly and without issue. 
  • Had therapy for the first time in a while. 
  • I was told I was funny. 
  • Job. Dogs.  Roof over my head 

The Bad:

  • Had therapy today. It leaves me drained. 
  • I’m dreading 29 reallllllllly bad right now. It’s almost 30 and I feel more alone than ever. When I wish I just had someone to battle the world next to me. 
  • It has been raining for days. 
  • I’m struggling with a lot of me actually. Which was a topic at  therapy,I need to try to be more gentle with myself. I apparently judge myself too harshly. Upon  reflection, she is probably right. 

The Ugly:

  • I haven’t heard from Caterpillar, this has been one of our longest stretches. So I have to figure that out and what I need to do for me. 
  • When my therapist asked me what are some things that I love about me, I couldn’t come up with anything. But I told her without sun and current low  feeling, I would have no issue with this. I love me honestly, even though it seems dark right now. 
  • Fighting the feeling that “everyone leaves me” – easier said than done. 
  • Perhaps I love too much. Do I change? Idk.  

Well. Sorry this wasn’t as cheery as I hoped, I have some reflection and homework to.  Thanks for stopping by and if you’re feeling low as well – Hang in there and I will too! *Hugs*

More cheer and updates to come. Thanks so for hanging in there with me all. 

❀️

6 thoughts on “28 going on 40!? Today was therapy day. Β 

  1. Therapy is such a drain. I actually have a session tomorrow and I look forward to being able to talk to my therapist and work through some issues- I am not looking forward to the inevitable ‘therapy hang over’ You also reminded me I have to finish my therapy homework- so I had really get on that and quit reading blogs. Perhaps she and I should work on my procrastination? LOL Cheers!

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    1. Sorry it took me so long to get back to you! I definitely suffered from a several day therapy hangover 😳. I’m feeling more myself again and I hope your appointment went well! Hope to chat again soon! ❀️❀️

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  2. The good. Your blog, connections you’ve made, and knowing you aren’t alone 😊
    I have therapy tomorrow, mine is also a yoga teacher I feel calm when I hear her voice and we do breathing exercises .

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    1. Hi Molly! Sorry it took me so long to get back to you ! The couple days after therapy really got me down – ugh! But! I am back on my feet. Thank you so much for your love and support! I hope your appointment went well πŸ™πŸ». Hope to talk again soon!

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  3. Don’t change! You do not love too much. You just need to direct the love towards deserving people who will reflect it back to you in their way. Otherwise you end up drained..

    I think you should write a list of all the good things you can think of about yourself. Even the silly stuff like “I always stop to pet dogs” or “I’m a good driver” or whatever. Just write down everything you can think of over the course of a day. I’ve tried that exercise before and for the first few hours honestly struggled to write anything down, but by the end of the day I was pleasantly surprised to see how many things I’m good at (that is, more than one)!

    Loving a lot definitely belongs on the list!

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    1. Hello lovely ! Thank you so much for this support. You’re right, I think writing what I like about me will be helpful and I got a new journal for it :). I think I was focusing on trying to find those “big” things but yes! Stopping to pet all the dogs is just as important! They need love too!

      You’re the best. Thank you so much for the inspiration and support. I hope to chat again soon!! β€οΈπŸ™πŸ»

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