Weekly Photo Challenge – Transient

Hello friends!

Here are my submissions for this week’s photo challenge! The theme this week is – Transient. I hope you enjoy them! ❤️

I will never get tired of this Red Panda (nom life)
Car Monster
Rare Random Acts of Love 
Skate Dog
Syd, my co-pilot
Once upon a time, geese took over my patio
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Looks a bit squirrely
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Everything about this is weird, but I like it? I think
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Mood.

Transient

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Apparently it is Wednesday!?

Hello my friends!

I hope your week is treating you well :). I have been in a bit of a funk and hiding away,sorry all.  Empathy takes over my soul in larger forms at times and it has been one of those times.

My current mood

There is just so much negativity &/or violence in this world. Every news alert that pops up on my ever connected phone, just depresses me at this point. Can America get its shit together – please? Of course it is all over, across the seas too and my heart goes out to them as well. So… how about this… WORLD CAN WE GET OUR SHIT TOGETHER!?

I guess a lot has been buzzing through my mind. I have been thinking of how the future of the US will turn out… I am mildly concerned. There was struggle before but now…ugh. 

It just makes my head spin. I had a list of my thoughts and feelings on some matters, but I erased them. When I drop that post, I want it to be in a clear state of mind :).

Anyway! So, outside of some “blahs” of mine, there has been some good and I need to focus on that. So here is a list of happier things from the past week+!

  • I bought a couple hibiscus trees for my garden and I love them. The colors are just so beautiful and bring me joy when I am out in my yard with the pups or laying in my hammock 🌺.
  • PRIDE weekend just finished up, there was a lot of love in Columbus which is a beautiful thing.
  • I trimmed up Barley my middle fur-child as he had RAGING fluff pantaloons (much worse the Syd). However, apparently someone is shy and kept sitting down when I tried to shave up his legs and bum. Which as you could imagine, left him with uneven fluff cheeks. That is right….eventually I accepted the defeat and just let it go. A woman can only fight their pupper so long, in the heat, face to dog butt – trying to even out cheeks. Pretty image eh!? Haha so there is that…ahem.  #bestdogmomaward goes to me
  • My blog reached 1337 likes – which is super exciting! Since I have been kind of slacking, I was happy to receive any award at this point. Slow progression is still something to be proud of! THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH! 😭
  • I successfully dodged the Foul Fowl (turkey) again and came out alive when I visited my father. Additional note… he now has a baby turkey too, so I really don’t know what I will do when that one grows up. Sorry Dad…I JUST CAN’T.
  • Summer is officially here!😎☀️
  • I started up a vitamin regiment and have been sticking to it. This may seem small and silly for most, but it is huge for me. I am terrible at taking pills besides my antidepressants and birth control. However, I am trying to take better care of myself.

I think that is about it for me. I will be posting my weekly photo challenge later as well!

How are you all doing!? Thank you for always supporting me and sending love my way! ❤

xoxo,

Weekly Photo Challenge – Focus

Hello my good friends & happy Thursday! ❤

I hope you are having a great week so far and I am sending you all the good vibes and love! Also, may your coffee/tea be strong and your day sunshiny and bright!

In effort to get my butt back on track for this blog, I made sure to find photos for this challenge and take a new one too! This week’s topic is: Focus – here we will showcase our favorite in-focus and out-of-focus moments. Enjoy!

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Ms. Nosey Syd

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In a world of chaos, be a gentle flower.

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Ohio is know for cows…right!?

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Lemon craze

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2016 was a blur

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Barley

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Craft store pause.

Focus

Talk to you soon my loves!

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Paws with a chance of breeze…

Hello & happy Wednesday friends!

I hope you all are having a good week so far :). I am currently sipping tea to help fight of raging post nasal drip and fight this sore throat from it. #kermitstyle

I wanted to share my Tuesday morning, as it was one of my more challenging mornings and perhaps you will get a laugh :).

So yesterday morning, I woke up to the sound of whiny dogs that needed to go outside. Since I have border collie mixes (all about that herd and/or chase life), I like to peek outside before letting them out – just in case they are inspired by a fellow dog, squirrel or cat. So while I popped my bed head, blurry eyed head outside, deemed the coast as clear – I released the hounds!

It turns out, my sleepy eyes deceived me.

There happened to be a strolling cat across the street, Barley and Sydney decided they wanted to play chase….turns out kitty was not about it. All I saw was paws. Dog paws, cat paws & my paws! Yes, my ill mannered dogs took off across the street to the bad “run-into-your-car-and-not-tell-you” neighbors, chasing poor kitty. Mind you, it is 6:10A, I am rocking bed head, plaid pj pants, no shoes (which became an issue) and glasses – yelling at these fools and start to jaunt towards them…barefoot.

For all the years of “living in the sticks” you would think that I would have more durable feet. I cannot walk on gravel to save my life. I just can’t, I am sure it is an equivalent of watching someone walk on coal & with less grace. My swift feet did not muster up the strength to take on running across the horrid, jagged little spikes (gravel) so I had to run back inside to grab some slip-ons and TRY to run after these ANIMALS.

It was waaayyy too early for this shit. I had not even had coffee 😒.

With my foot protectors on (sexy black clogs), I made sure Ana was safe – at least the blind dog is good! Then I started my mission (take two)….then it happened. First stride out, I felt a cool breeze by my lady parts but I did not think much about it, it was still pretty early and cool and I DID NOT HAVE TIME TO THINK! 

MUST. SAVE. DOGS. 

also, the cat & of course scold the pups for running off, they could have been hurt!

I rally the hounds by their collars and with my “mom” voice. With a dog in each hand, safely crossing the street, my pj pants which also had a loose elastic band was half falling down slowly and not to mention, I found the source of the artic draft by my nether regions…. I SPLIT my effing pants. Sorry neighbors…all aboard the hot mess express…🤷🏻‍♀️

That’s right ladies and gents, I split my pants before 6:25A and that is a new record for me. Also, a sign of how the day was going to go. Yes, there it was – high thigh, straight down to my knee, split and flapping about.

How!?

I guess that is what I get for trying to be athletic. Note to self, sleep with running shoes on and stretchy pants to allow for movement. I am sure the pups were snickering under their “sad puppy dog face” Uh huh, they knew they were in trouble and also realizing their mother is a mess. I think this calls for a repeat image:

Anyway, since most of my action occurred before even getting dressed, the rest of the day was pretty low key. Work came and went with ease, I dodged the down pour while I waited for the bus and ate cocoa puffs for dinner…2 bowls….like a true adult. I also think I was in bed by 10:30P so there is that too.

I think that is about it for today, sorry for the short post.

Do you have any fun dog stories!? I would love to hear them 🙂


Talk again soon! ❤

Hello, it’s me. I am alive!


Hello my fabulous friends! Yes, I know – I legit let a week go by without chatting with you all. I have been slipping here and it upsets me, I will get my butt back on track!

So tell me, what is going on my followers!? I want to hear from you, how are you doing!? Have you tried anything new? Fought a fear? Slayed a dragon!? 

Tell me how you are feeling, basically – I feel out of touch and want to hear from you!! PLEASE!

As for me, I have been feeling a bit low and anxious (yes, its just as confusing as it sounds lol). I even had to take a mental health day from work Friday. I have not been sleeping again… so there is that. Just still stressing about my abnormal pap results. I know, I know – I should not be worried. However, I have to take 3 pills a day to try to tame that anxious beast inside me! Sometimes it is still hard. sigh. So, only 2 more weeks to go before my test…. I can do this … right? Most women have already been here, done that. So, trying to stay calm 🙂

I did try to do some things for me this weekend due to my mood. I love weird shit, I am a weird gal soooo antique/resale shops are my jam! I found 3?? In my little hometown so I went rummaging to find the perfect thing for me! Right? Retail therapy is always great! The only issue, I could not find anything that made my heart just burst out of it’s chest. I tried to find a record player and or soulful records… fail. I did however see a cassette player in the antique store…so I guess we are finally there? I felt a bit old… not gonna lie. So the perfect pick me up gift is still yet to be found, so I hit up my local coffee shop to lift my spirits in caffeine form :).

Outside of my failed rummaging and funk, I helped Caterpillar turn his empty apartment into a homey apartment! Want to test a strength of a relationship? Build furniture together hahaha. Jk jk, we made it out alive and not a scratch or toooo much bickering.

Now enough about me, please fill my comments with anything about you!!! All the things! The good, bad, ugly, sweet, funny, jokes, pictures, feelings – let me hear from you ❤ I will chat with you all soon!

❤ xoxo,

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Versatile Blogger Award!

Hello beautiful friends!

I hope you had a great long weekend and I will make sure to catch you up on mine in a later post…however, now is the time that I FINALLY do my Versatile Blogger Award post! YAY!!!!

Thank you so much to my nominator, @tiredmindtypingfingers ❤ . She is a lovely fellow mental health and chronic illness warrior, please check out her blog regarding her journey and fabulous writings HERE.

Even though I am super late in doing this post, I am so freaking grateful. I still feel so new to this and for someone to enjoy my blog of ramblings, rants and overall kind of sad theme makes me super happy. Thank you again kind – Tired Mind Typing Fingers, I love you and so glad we met here!

The Rules:

The rules say to thank the person who nominated you (also providing a link to their blog), nominate 10 blogs you feel should be awarded, and then share 7 interesting facts about yourself.

The 10 blogs I’m nominating for the Versatile Blogger Award:

(I apologize if you’ve already been nominated before – if you have, feel free to skip out on making a post!)

  1. Tom Schultz – http://spiritinpolitics.wordpress.com/
  2. Natalie Vinh – http://natalievinh.com/
  3. My Journey by Carla Cressy – http://myjourneybycarlacressy.wordpress.com/
  4. hell0chloe – http://midnightwander.wordpress.com/
  5. helloitsjo – http://helloitsjo.com/
  6.  Feeling Suicidal Blog – http://feelingsuicidalblog.wordpress.com/
  7.  Leslie J – Glimpse of My Mind 
  8. bexoxo – http://bexoxoblog.wordpress.com/
  9. Chelia – http://pinkfordays.wordpress.com/
  10. Quinn –  When do I get the Manual?

 

 

And lastly, the 7 tidbits about me:

  1. In order for me to be a functioning human-being, I need coffee. Pre-coffee, my hair is a bit disheveled, I may have eyeliner going down my face (despite my my best scrubbing), things just do not make sense, simple thoughts are difficult and thing moves in slow-mo. Essentially, my blood is not red, it looks like and smells of fresh coffee.
  2. I have 3 rambunctious rescue mix pups – who like to drive me nuts and listen to everyone else in the world…but me.
  3. After cleaning my garage this weekend, it should be know that I have 3 N64 consoles, 1 NES OG console and still missing a WII U Game Pad some how?
  4. I almost lost my right baby toe due to a Brown Recluse. To this day, I cannot look a tiny harmless spider without breaking out into a sweat and running. Or blindly put my foot inside another shoe without shaking it.
  5. When learning to drive my father’s truck, he almost forced me to use a telephone book or pillow as a booster to see over the dash. Turns out, I made it work WITHOUT IT. k thx Dad.
  6. I sent my first international letter EVER to fellow blogger, Cheila and cannot wait to hear when she actually receives it. I want to know how long it takes for letters to get from Ohio to Portugal! I am nerding about about this btw.
  7. I am allergic to dust and mold. In additional to seasonal allergies, so you know… after garage cleaning for 3 days – I cannot breathe.

Thanks for taking the time to read this! I love you all, thanks again @tiredmindtypingfingers for nominating me, you are the best!

To the ones I nominated, if you have already completed one – please disregard but know that I was thinking of you. To the ones who have not, I cannot wait to learn more about you!

Until later! xoxo

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Friday Fem Frustrations *Warning: OB/GYN addition & a bit crass*

Hi all and HAPPY FREAKING FRIDAY!!! ❤

 

So today’s post will be more so for the ladies..sorry for my male readers, I put the OB/GYN in the title to scare you off if need be :). If you are here anyway, good for you sir and come here and give me a fist bump, because you are incredible…also fearless! Also… I am so sorry.

I really debated if I wanted to blog about my appointment or gynecology in general. Why? I felt that it was one of those things that a lot of people do not talk about. Unless you are a bottle of wine deep with some really close gal friends with snacks around you. I asked myself, why am I embarrassed by this? Us ladies all go through it, so why the hell not? So goodbye shame and here we go!

As you probably picked up, I had my yearly (yes, I still go yearly – I don’t care about the new standards) gyno appointment today. I dread them, they are not fucking fun – you gals know this! Well, unless maybe you do and happily skip and or cha cha on up to the sign in sheet…and if that is the case, please contact me and give me your tips, because I could use them!

Sigh…The only perk of this day was I got to sleep in.

SO, back to my story – I rolled out of bed and showered (you are welcome doc!) and tried to make myself as presentable as possible and by that, I mean what is the “acceptable” hairiness level here? I debated this and I plan on Googling more about this later. Like, this woman/Dr/speculum and swab wielding super-woman is about to have her face staring at my vagina, I could at least give her an inviting scenery? Right!?

Additionally, maybe I need to bring her a gift, or provide candles for our big moment or fucking better yet, WE PATIENTS deserve a gift at checkout – I will come back to this later, I feel it needs more attention. In terms of hairiness, I mean this is like prepping for a sexy date. Like, bush maintained? Controlled? What about this chipped toenail polish? What about my legs? Can I get away with this stubble or should I shave? I felt that my leg fur…er hair was acceptable. However, I went with BB-8 Star Wars knee high socks…just in case. Which BTW, I do this for my partners as well, there is a reason that I have an excessive amount of badass or colorful knee highs. Also, just an excessive amount of fun socks (why is this such a thing for me this week?!)

After bathing and finding comfy clothes that are acceptable for Fri-yay work days….because if I am going to be met with a speculum BEFORE coffee AND have to go to work after… I am going to get as casual as my work will allow. So that is exactly what I did, plain tee, nice jeans and the Chuck Taylors that I have had since…. Middle school – I know.

The drive in was filled with groans and sighs while reflecting on the questions that are about to be fired my away soon and being the anxious gal that I am… totally tried to plan my answers before hand. This is my prep list and what my answers were while driving….

  • When was your last period?
    • Gee doc, I don’t have one because I am on an endless anti-baby pill regimen for endometriosis and look out world I am a single gal – RAWL!!
  • Are you in a monogamous relationship?
    • Um…. let me stop you right there doc. Let me tell you about dating in this era! But yes, I am a one man lady and outside of that, this question is too complicated and we do not have enough time for this doc. NEXT!
  • How many partners have you had in the past 6 months?
    • Oh, you mean that bat cave down there!? You touching me is the most action I have had in months! **jk jk sorry if this was too far for some but my humor in awkward situations can get out of hand, if I offend you – I am sorry and forgive me!**
    • Besides the bat residents in said cave during those down times with Caterpillar, one. Are you damn happy? When does this stop.
  • Are you using birth control methods outside of the pill, like condoms?
    • I mean…
  • Any issues…?
    • Nope, happy as a clam. Literally.
    • All is well, thanks for verifying my vag is happy and healthy. I love these convos, would you like to go out for tea after this!?

These thoughts and anxieties helped fill the time during my freeway cruising and before I knew it. It was time for the paper gown.

Guys, it was freezing in that damn office. Can we get some paper gown warmers? Heated exam chair? I don’t know what the deal was but I was not happy to strip down for this woman, without a steak dinner and shiver out of the stirrups. Worst fear, chattering/shivering so much that I end up closing my legs around her head during exam.

Obviously this is a bit exaggerated. By a bit, clearly a ton. It was cold but you do not have to worry for the doc, her head was safe. My nips were prob hard though and for that doc, I am sorry. P.S. – your freezing hands did not help…

Then it happened, the ole “you are going to feel some slight pressure” line – I am sorry. There is NOTHING in this world to 1- prepare you for that cold instrument going into depths of you and 2- hearing “relax” is not going to help me BTW. I know you are trying and I do appreciate it but at this point, I am sure everything is so tense down there you should prob give up. Also…me too.

It was all over pretty quickly, I must say. I always feels like a drawn out process but I made it. She wrapped it up by saying “everything looks and feels good” um…phrasing?! Glad you could see in there, I GROOMED JUST FOR YOU! Because I am sure that was what she was really focused on… and meant….so now we wait. Results will be back within a week or so and I did get another STD panel done because you know – wild and crazy gal over here.

She did say “we typically do STD screens routinely for women up to 26. However, if you would like we can do test for that as well.” I thought this was interesting, like why 26? What science goes behind this? I will be Googling that as well! I assume because most women after 26 are married and or in steady situations… ahem. It is fine, I will be the wildcard for her go ahead, test away doc!

I do want to mention that she did compliment my socks, she got a bonus point. She then lost said bonus point, when she had to ask what it was…. CLEARLY IT IS BB-8, YOU KNOW STAR WARS!? Oh, not a huge nerd like myself… sorry. But really, I smiled and just said it was Star Wars because her look of confusion was enough to tell me that this conversation cannot go on any longer. I fucking love droids.

Let me loop back around to rewards for making it through these appointments. My thoughts, all OB/GYN practices should have a tea room or spa room? Like, hey you badass bitch – you made it through the exam, have some tea! You want a quick facial instead!? HERE YOU GO! I would also accept a fun Starbucks drink, blanket or candy.

Once I scheduled my next sexy date with this gal next year, I decided that I did need a fun Starbucks drink for successfully adulting, so I waited in line with the other zombies and achieved the “i survived the speculum, swab wielding wonder-woman” mocha and happily drank it on my ride into work.

I made it and I should have another post like this for another year, aren’t we all happy!?

One more thing, I am unsure how I feel about photos on the ceiling. Does your practice have these? It was like a family photo today and it just kinda made me confused to be looking at 3 toddlers while enduring this.

Anyway! Remember, it is important to get these exams done, even if you do hate them. That whole self care thing guys! Make sure you do it!FullSizeRender (6)

Now, I have to ask, do you have any good OB/GYN stories? Anything at all really to comment and not make me feel alone and that I may have made a posting mistake!

❤ Love you all and have a great weekend!

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Not So Thriving Thursday

Hello – it’s me! I missed ALL OF YOU!

I think it is safe to say that I have made it through our “hiring frenzy” over the past 2 weeks – WHEW. I hope to be back in the blogging game starting now – yessssss! I really do miss reading up on you guys, sorry for being a bad friend and being so far behind, I feel like I am letting you guys down and it makes me sad. I promise to dedicate some time to that asap! ❤

So I guess I can give you a quick life update before diving into my reader. Also, since my brain is still a bit foggy/fried/overstimulated – I am going to do a random bullet list. Simple, easy thoughts on life….should not be too hard right!? Let’s see…

  • Doggos: While neatly trimmed and oh so loving, I think my 3 pups are trying to kill me. They have been fond of romping around in the middle of the night and needing to be let out multiple times throughout the night over the past week. I did not get settled into bed until 2:30A last night. There was some anxiety issues with this as well, but mostly CRAZED MUTTS! I try so hard to give them all the love, the ear scratches, refuse to walk out on my job to keep kibble in the bowls! This is how they repay me!? YESH! Thanks puppers 😉 I really do love them though – just want that to be noted!
  • Fatigue: Is an understatement for me over the past week. I mean, I think adulthood in general is a giant blur of fatigue but this has been a new level for me. Sadly even while feeling so tired that my body aches and my nerve endings feel on fire – I still cannot sleep well. I may have to bust out the ole trazodone again 😦 which also makes me sad. I just want a normal functioning body…. k thx! I am sure the work load and still raging pollen count has something to do with it… right?
  • Officially ANTI-SOCIAL:  Well, kinda. As I mentioned a few posts back, I was participating in the IG @omgkenzieee #selflovebootcamp – which sounded so good in theory but it just got too hard…then I got really far behind. So there went my weekly posting idea versus the daily. I guess you could say I have officially given up. That’s right, I am a quitter. I still follow the tag and friends that I made the first couple weeks…er… week? They are warriors indeed and perhaps I am just a little bunny that is lost. Kudos to all the ladies out there who is still putting their bodies out there and fighting for the MUST body positive movement. You girls go! I will cheer from over here, by over here I mean with this pizza and probably a blanket.
  • Mood: I have been in a low mood since yesterday. There is no sun, only rain and my stubby legs did not make it over “large” leap over a puddle this morning and…my feet, flats and legs were wet for most of the morning. It did not help things 😦 . I guess I am being a Grumpy Kat….
  • Buffoonery: First, can I say that I love this word? Why is it not utilized more? Anyway… I love to take pictures and while looking through my 3k photos on my phone, I realized that I had quite the range of random snaps, downloaded memes, inspirational quotes and even raunchy ridiculous memes all in between all the photos of my rebellious mutts. I was thinking that I wanted to put together a quick movie/slideshow? I guess you could say? That shows some of my pics and randomness that I love and snatched off the interwebs….just to give you a show? So you can see what I find is interesting, I hope you will tell me your thoughts on it!

Case of the Mondays

Hello friends & happy Monday!!

So, I tried to blog Friday, then again over the weekend and I just did not feel creative. I tried and wanted to chat with all of you but just could not find the words or…anything. It was sad! So today my friends, I am forcing myself and I do feel a little more lively today.  I FREAKING MISSED YOU!

Okay, so let’s see… what did I do this weekend…

Friday: I was brain dead. It was such a busy work week in comparison to what we have been and I dated things in July…so there was that. I FREAKING thought it was July friends. Needless to say, I went home and just shut down. As an introvert, too much stimuli can wear me down. I feel like I did not do much “self care” if you will – so powered down like a damn robot is what I did.  I came across this a while ago and it is so perfect & true. This was me… but imagine brown hair and 3 dogs around me versus the cat haha. Most people probably would think this is lame but, it is a necessity in order for me to be a somewhat social and functioning human being.

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Saturday: Was not much better. I am pretty sure I finally rolled out of bed at like 1P and showered at 3P. I nap, stir, watch Netflix and repeat. I did eventually order pizza and texted with a few people – very limited socializing haha. Then, a burst of energy hit and I started cleaning the house like a mad woman. Reorganizing my closet, still sifting through clothes for donations, dusted, put away my heavy boots (FINALLY!), steam cleaned the carpets and cleared a lot of clutter – my soul was much happier in the end. It was worth dealing with my dust allergy… kinda. Fun fact – my allergist told me that I should clean with a mask on. I have yet to do this, I find it silly but…. times like Saturday & Sunday I realize that perhaps I DO need one and that this doctor MAY know what he is talking about….maybe I will look for some fun ones? Anyway the “Mad Housewife that is NOT a wife at all but merely a crazed dog mom/cleaning machine vibe” continued into the wee hours  – look fucking out world! I am usually ready for bed by 10P!

Sunday: The madness continued. I decided I was going to shave my dog, I realize this may sound a bit… off. But I have fluffy dog problem and my girl Sydney was rocking some SERIOUS dog pantaloons? Pup-Pants? Fuzzy Butt? Butt fluff???? I am not sure what the correct term is but they were getting a bit out of control annnnnd her tail was a bit long too. So I channeled my inner dog groomer and went to town. I should have done a “before and after” but this all was a bit random and really did not plan for the fashion shoot 🐕 #fail. Regardless she seems like a happy pup! Just look at her!  My grooming skills must have passed the Syd test! ♥️

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I hope everyone had a good start to the week! I am drained from the day (again) – sorry my that I don’t have too much to report…… EXCEPT FOR THESE BAD ASS SOCKS! 👇🏻 AREN’T THESE INCREDIBLE!? They are so me and btw…I have a thing for fabulous socks! Stripes, dots, houndstooth, nerdy and witty – love them all! 

 Monday morning gifts from friends are the best ♥️ ! 💁🏼💁🏻

That is really all I’ve got today guys, how was your weekend!? Tell me ALL THE THINGS. 
xoxo,